A bitchin post

A bitching post.

Yesterday we received a sympathy card from some friends. We used to be very close to these friends, but for various reasons, we are more like acquaintances now. Mostly it’s because of me.

I’m very jealous of them and their lives. What kind of friend is jealous of another friend? Well I am, of them. First of all, they seem way more wealthy then we are. Now this is not the reason in itself that I am jealous. I have several friends that are better off then we are. Let’s be honest, it’s not difficult to be better off then we are.

First, let me explain that she is a S.A.H.M. Which is wonderful in itself. I’m glad she can be with her kids. He goes into houses that have been foreclosed and cleans them out. Apparently that is very lucrative.

Anyhow, they have a HUGE home, I mean, over 5,000 Sq. Ft. Which around here, is HUGE. Including a 6 car garage, swimming pool, the works.

They have a HUGE television….brand new. They have 2 BRAND NEW vehicles. One of which is a truck that I know was at least $70,000.00.

She goes shopping for clothes for her and her children at least once a week.

They went to Disneyland for Christmas. They took their BIL’s, MIL’s, FIL’s. For an entire week.

They bought a car (2008 Mustang) for a friend (rumored to be a friend with benefits).

I could go on and on.

Technically, as a friend, I should be happy for them. Excited for them. But I’m not. I’m jealous and resentful. WTF are we doing wrong that we don’t even have 1 of the above items???

So anyhow, we get a sympathy card, and it says that they don’t understand why we aren’t close anymore, they miss us, and love us, and want our kids to spend time together. They are there for us..blah, blah…and again, that they want us to be close again.

What should I say? What should I do? Tell her how I feel. That will more than likely just piss her off…..

How can I change my feelings? Should I??